T_T

I miss you. I just want you to know. And I need to know if you ever miss me too. Cause this distance and not-keep-in-touch thingy is killing me. 

Ah?

Sometimes I didnt mean to miss you that much. I mean, I dont want to do so. I've been trying as much as I could to avoid to think about you. And the less I care, I should be happier right? But naaaah. The less I try to forget and pretend I am better without you, in my mind, the more I cant concentrate in my world to not think about this. Sigh..

And to be honest, I'm trying not to talk about this with my friends cause I'm afraid if I do so, they'll think I am obsessed with him. Like duh, I'm not. If I am then, I will not be able to stand like this. To pretend like nothing happen. I will do something stupid. But I am not. I am not obsessed. I am just, want em like someone. Huh. Like you never feel like this before.

Whatever it is, I want you here. Cause a friend and you are different. Way  different.

Holidays

It's been awhile since my last update. It is holiday right now and It's suck cause I do nothing. Ahhh