Just around the corner!

Hello! Just wanna tell you that I am seriously nervous. Okey, I am lying. Actually, I do feel like that sometime. But for now, my feeling, they are mixing. hihi. Sometimes, I am deadly nervous, I feel want to cry. But then sometimes, I feel like, naaah ~ I can do this ;) I can! Well, it's good right to feel like then. You will be calm and absolutely can handle everything well :D

The point is now that, A WEEK more!!!! Can you believe it. Time fly damn fast. Aliya, think about the freedom and you will be calm :) yeah! One more week and Aliya will be in front of computer, err laptop all the time! FREEDOM :D

Ya Allah, berikanlah ku kekuatan untuk hadapi semua ini. I am so scare to face all this :( I got no strength. Please make me feel calm. and please get rid all these negative thinking :(

Damn it!

You know, for once, I felt that this is not important anymore. Its okey, if nobody stay beside me because I know I can handle this by myself. And for god sake, I cant take this anymore! It feel like. Gosh! I hate You!

I wish somebody can hold me and say " Its okey to cry and let everything go "

Should I or Should not ?

I am deadly confuse! Look, I know i am happy when Mr.Ai textes me. But now, he's being annoying all the time -____- gosh! He is like so damn 'skema' and so like the one yang ikut peraturan. and cara dia texting, u imagine by yourself. and sometimes, i am out of words okey? i dont know what to reply. Okey, enough about this.

and Mr.Black is back! okey, it is like he wished me about 13th bla bla bla. and I started to remember bout the old time. screwed me! and its like we are going to continue the relationship. what am i doing? I really dont know okey. Maybe, just maybe I do miss him but am I suppose to continue it? :/ errr, i need some opinion. haha. and i had told him - we'll see after PMR okey? and I think i'm giving him hopes. A hope that me, myself do not know a right things or not.

and and PMR is only 3 weeks away. which is quite nervous - to those who are not ready yet, and who are not revising all the topics. and it also quite good - to those who already plan what to do after PMR. and me? I am in both categories. hik hik hik.

- Pray for me to get straight A's people! Amin ~ ;)