Fade.

Well, you became you again. Guess, the sweet you changed huh? Oh and the love fade away? Okay. Thanks for the beautiful two months and what so ever.

Alhamdulillah.

Ya Allah! Alhamdulillah. Terima kasih kerana Kau makbulkan doa ku Ya Allah. ALHAMDULILLAH. There's no other word that can describe the best feeling in the world. All you wanna do is smiling and smile and smile all day long. I still can't believe. SPM is super hard. I'm telling ya (unless you terer in certain subject) But to balance all of it, Ya Allah tuhan jah tahu. That's why you cant focus in certain subject, you have to balance everything. I've never got an A for Bio or Bm. Even A- pun. But Alhamdulillah. Miracles do happen.

Getting 4A+ and 5A made me realise that we can achieve something beyond our abilities - cause actually I kinda think like it was impossible at first hehe. But with smart work and effort, you can change something. Of course at last all you need to do is to tawakkal.

Hehe Alhamdulillah.

p/s: This post had been in the draft for a month already. So yeah, a little bit late.

Hi

Hi, anybody here? Did anyone actually read this rusty thing over here? Hello?

D.

I wrote a loooooongggg post before this. And this damn apps wont post it. Nvm. Maybe if I post it something bad will happen. Positive! Positive!

And damn you pms.

Sorry.

Maybe I'm being too much. Maybe, this is just a dream. Maybe I'm being a dramatic girl. I dont know. But I'm sorry you guys. I never want to be in this way. I'm sorry.

Eya.

Sahabat

Kawan? Sahabat?

Aku rindu sebenarnya. Rindu persahabatan yang telah terjalin selama 5 tahun. Semakin hari, semakin jauh.

Tak, persahabatan sahabat lima orang yang hanya kekal selama 3 tahun. Semakin berpisah, semakin jauh.

Sebenarnya, aku tak pernah kisah kalau kau ada kawan baru ke pape ke. Kawan biar seribu kan? Aku tahu. Aku faham. Kelas lain, mestilah kawan baru. 

Tak kan la nak kawan dengan orang sama je.
Tak kan la nak duduk sorang sorang.
Tak kan la nak buat sombong dengan orang.

Tapi yang aku tak tahu. Yang aku tak faham. Kenapa semakin lama, semakin aku tak kenal kau siapa?
Kenapa semakin lama, semakin aku tak faham dengan perangai kau?
Kenapa semakin lama, semakin aku tak boleh nak buat macam biasa?
Kenapa semakin lama, semakin kau jauh?
Kenapa semakin lama, semakin kau menghilang?

Kenapa? Try to make me understand. Once. Only once. Cause if you're trying to blame someone else, you should try to make them understand first. I've tried to understand you. But you off the limits. You're trying so hard to hurt me. Oh you know what? You did it! Congratulation babe.

Hidup

"Tatkala panas terik, aku harap hujan datang.
Tatkala hujan lebat, aku harap pelangi muncul.
Tatkala pelangi muncul, aku masih berharap.sesuatu yang lain akan datang."

I always wonder what do I want in my life? Is it love? Or something else?
I always wonder is this kind of life that I want? Cause it doesnt seem that perfect.
Or maybe I didnt even want perfection in my life?

Maybe I know the reason why Allah made me brighter than others in the family.
Because, He knows that I'm going to face something hard in the middle of hardness.
Because, He knows what's best for me.
Because, He knows that I need to prove that in the middle of hardness I can still achieve the best in my life.

And yes, I'm going to prove it.
To prove that I can.
To prove that I can survive.
To prove that I am tough.
To prove that I am the best!

With all the hardship now, may Allah ease everything for me in the future. InsyaAllah.